Today is the end of my one week holiday. Boo-hoo! But I'm really glad it's over, 'cause I don't want to be at home on weekdays with that 'thing' in the house. I'd rather spend my time at school, or at the library. I am in need of inspirations, writing gloomy poems are not fun at all. Well, got to go. I need to finish my last-minute works. xx

I'm tired. I'm restless. I can feel my soul running, somewhere out there, lost in it's own dimension. I feel so lifeless. I'm tired, physically & mentally. Judging from how I look, you'll never guess that. Acting all happy on the outside when you're rotting in the inside is painful, just like a dying animal. I'm tired, and soon this will lead to my death, and everyone is going to be happy. And the apocalypse is not going to happen. Thanks to my death. Good-bye.

I should be doing my commerce notes right now. I'm almost done with my notes anyway. So, I'm going to waste my time in front of this computer. I didn't go to school today due to this really really annoying backache. Okay, maybe I'm just a little lazy too, just a little. Sometimes we all get a little lazy, don't we? No? Yeah, whatever. It's not that I'm lazy to go to school and learn, it's just.. How do I say this..? There's actually no point of going if my mind is not there, and my soul is somewhere else. I just need a moment to relax, not a brilliant idea actually, considering that this is my last year of being in high school.

My mind is full of sighs, and I find it hard to focus on some stuffs, especially my studies. I think most people find it hard to believe that I actually give a f*ck about my studies. I know I socialize too much, not in a bad way though. I do not party or anything. But yes, I do care about my future. Well, when I think about it again, it's a good thing that some people couldn't believe it 'cause that lowers their expectation in me. Nice! However, that does not mean that I should not do well. I do. But...oh what the heck. I'm not going to talk about this.

Another thing that's itching in my mind is...I hate to say this..my classmates, new classmates. I am going to admit this, and I seriously seriously do not care who's going to file a complaint about this, I just dislike most of them. Again, I said m-o-s-t of them. I don't really know why, I just don't. I don't really know them that well, except for my friends, Tasha & Ann. The others, just a bunch of strangers I don't really know. And to tell you the truth, I just don't want to know them, most of them. Some of them are nice actually, in front of me. Blah, enough about them.

xx

I promise.

There's nothing to talk about lately. Life is not really interesting nowadays. I hate to admit, but I really miss 2011. I know it's almost 2 weeks after 2011, but there are so many shits bugging me. Being in a new class sucks, that's something I won't hide. I am trying my best not to be bothered by this. However, most of my classmates are a bunch of jokes, not in a good way. I said MOST of them, not everyone. So, before you assume that I'm talking about everyone, you should really read what I typed just now. And another thing, I didn't mention any names in here 'cause I am so not interested with their ordinary names. One thing's for sure, I'm not going to let them annoy me and disturb my studies with their monkey acts. I don't really care if they read this, why should I care about them? It's rather pointless, don't you think? Enough talking about them.

I made this decision. I am going to accept this decision, no regrets. The subjects are not bad actually. I really love History, EXCEPT, when it comes to presentations. Some of the groups are boring and not interesting at all. And I bet our presentation is going to be the same too when our turn comes. But, I hope it's not gonna be boring. Who am I kidding? It doesn't matter if it's good or boring, it's going to be boring to those people anyway. Well, too bad for them. Okay, I'd like to tell you more. BUT, I'm more interested in sleeping. Good-bye.

Good-bye.