एकांतभीति

end.

2012-01-29T14:58:00.003+08:00

Today is the end of my one week holiday. Boo-hoo! But I'm really glad it's over, 'cause I don't want to be at home on weekdays with that 'thing' in the house. I'd rather spend my time at school, or at the library. I am in need of inspirations, writing gloomy poems are not fun at all. Well, got to go. I need to finish my last-minute works. xx

tired.

2012-01-20T23:40:00.003+08:00

I'm tired. I'm restless. I can feel my soul running, somewhere out there, lost in it's own dimension. I feel so lifeless. I'm tired, physically & mentally. Judging from how I look, you'll never guess that. Acting all happy on the outside when you're rotting in the inside is painful, just like a dying animal. I'm tired, and soon this will lead to my death, and everyone is going to be happy. And the apocalypse is not going to happen. Thanks to my death. Good-bye.

Tomorrow, and tomorrow, and tomorrow,

Creeps in this petty pace from day to day,
To the last syllable of recorded time;
And all our yesterdays have lighted fools
The way to dusty death. Out, out, brief candle!
Life's but a walking shadow, a poor player,
That struts and frets his hour upon the stage,
And then is heard no more. It is a tale
Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury,
Signifying nothing.

untitled

2012-01-16T22:55:00.003+08:00

I should be doing my commerce notes right now. I'm almost done with my notes anyway. So, I'm going to waste my time in front of this computer. I didn't go to school today due to this really really annoying backache. Okay, maybe I'm just a little lazy too, just a little. Sometimes we all get a little lazy, don't we? No? Yeah, whatever. It's not that I'm lazy to go to school and learn, it's just.. How do I say this..? There's actually no point of going if my mind is not there, and my soul is somewhere else. I just need a moment to relax, not a brilliant idea actually, considering that this is my last year of being in high school.

My mind is full of sighs, and I find it hard to focus on some stuffs, especially my studies. I think most people find it hard to believe that I actually give a f*ck about my studies. I know I socialize too much, not in a bad way though. I do not party or anything. But yes, I do care about my future. Well, when I think about it again, it's a good thing that some people couldn't believe it 'cause that lowers their expectation in me. Nice! However, that does not mean that I should not do well. I do. But...oh what the heck. I'm not going to talk about this.

Another thing that's itching in my mind is...I hate to say this..my classmates, new classmates. I am going to admit this, and I seriously seriously do not care who's going to file a complaint about this, I just dislike most of them. Again, I said m-o-s-t of them. I don't really know why, I just don't. I don't really know them that well, except for my friends, Tasha & Ann. The others, just a bunch of strangers I don't really know. And to tell you the truth, I just don't want to know them, most of them. Some of them are nice actually, in front of me. Blah, enough about them.

promise.

2012-01-16T22:30:00.002+08:00

I promise.

jokes.

2012-01-13T20:25:00.004+08:00

There's nothing to talk about lately. Life is not really interesting nowadays. I hate to admit, but I really miss 2011. I know it's almost 2 weeks after 2011, but there are so many shits bugging me. Being in a new class sucks, that's something I won't hide. I am trying my best not to be bothered by this. However, most of my classmates are a bunch of jokes, not in a good way. I said MOST of them, not everyone. So, before you assume that I'm talking about everyone, you should really read what I typed just now. And another thing, I didn't mention any names in here 'cause I am so not interested with their ordinary names. One thing's for sure, I'm not going to let them annoy me and disturb my studies with their monkey acts. I don't really care if they read this, why should I care about them? It's rather pointless, don't you think? Enough talking about them.

I made this decision. I am going to accept this decision, no regrets. The subjects are not bad actually. I really love History, EXCEPT, when it comes to presentations. Some of the groups are boring and not interesting at all. And I bet our presentation is going to be the same too when our turn comes. But, I hope it's not gonna be boring. Who am I kidding? It doesn't matter if it's good or boring, it's going to be boring to those people anyway. Well, too bad for them. Okay, I'd like to tell you more. BUT, I'm more interested in sleeping. Good-bye.

left unsaid.

2012-01-11T17:29:00.001+08:00

Hello.

Good-bye.

nevermind.

2011-12-22T22:52:00.005+08:00

I am not afraid of what other people might think of me, they don’t even know what I’ve been through. I could not care about their words, even if I want to. Say what you want to say ‘cause you have the right to do so. But, I will not give a damn since I have so many more things to accomplish. Your words might hurt, but as long as I am alive, I will never let your words get into me.

people

2011-12-22T20:53:00.003+08:00

I do not hate people, people hate me.

with an empty feeling.

2011-12-20T11:10:00.000+08:00

:)

2011-12-10T00:27:00.002+08:00

Met him for a little while yesterday. I miss this annoying Munkey.

oh so boring day.

2011-12-09T13:26:00.006+08:00

It's weird. I wonder why I uploaded photos of myself in my blog lately. It's not like me. And I find it so weird. My confidence is boosting, I think? Well, whatever the reason is, I shall find out about it later. I've got to catch on with my studies, since I'm not in science stream class anymore. I'm gonna miss biology next year. No, I'm not gonna miss our biology teacher. Haha. Sorry, that kind of slipped out of my mind, kind of. Hahaha. What I'm worried about next year is one subject, which, I have no basic whatsoever. And that subject I'm talking about is Commerce. The subject is compulsory, which means, I have to take it whether I like it or not. Bummer! Next week, I have to start studying for Commerce. Yeah, I don't really like the sound of that. But, it's important and I don't want to flunk out. I need, SERIOUSLY need to start thinking about my future. 'Cause I don't really wanna stay in this house forever. I wonder how do I survive living here everyday. It's hard to think when you're surrounded by voices. I have to get the hell out of here after next year or I might die. Dramatic, aren't I?

2011-12-09T13:20:00.001+08:00

In order to be happy, I must first smile. :)

biology camping trip.

2011-11-24T17:09:00.007+08:00

Good day people! Yeah, today I'm in a good mood. I feel like a million dollar, not. I don't know. I just feel so great today. And in minutes, it's going to rain. I just love this cold weather. Keningau has been raining for weeks now. I think it's good that it's raining here, but it is so hard to do some outdoor activities. Oh well! I think I am less depressed after the camping trip, which is a good thing. I thought the camping trip was going to be lame, 'cause some people changed their minds on the last minute. Screw you people for that! Ha!

These are the people that participated in the camping trip. Those foreigners are Olga, Jedediah & their son, Joaquin. I am too lazy to introduce the others to you people. Oh yeah, by the way, we invited those biologists to our camping trip. It was great having them around, 'cause it made the whole experiment easier since they're biologists. And we gained so much information about insects from them. We're very thankful to have them helping us during the trip. So, that's about it, since someone is shouting at me to give her laptop back, 'cause she has so many "things" to do. Whatever.

camping.

2011-11-23T21:44:00.002+08:00

So, here's what had happened. The camping trip turned out awesome. Seriously, I wish I could tell you all about it now. But, I am so tired from the trip. And I need some rest. I'll tell you people all about it tomorrow, maybe. Good night!

not exactly what it seems to be..

2011-11-20T18:42:00.004+08:00

I am not excited about our camping trip tomorrow. And I know most of us are not that excited too, 'cause this is kind of a last minute activity. Who the hell cares about that stupid trip anyway?! It's just a dumb trip, nothing more. I should stay at home and do nothing. I don't know exactly what should I feel nowadays. Sometimes I get excited over something, and the next, I'm not. It's pretty stupid. I feel lifeless, I have no one at all. It's been fun acting like I'm okay when I'm actually not. I have no best friends to talk to actually. It's quite depressing when I thought about it again, and again. I think that's the main reason why I started to write again. I bring my book and pen everywhere and write it at anytime of the day. What happens when my book is full of words? I'll burn them, just like the old ones, hoping that all the old and bad memories will turn into ashes. It's not exactly a good idea, 'cause those old memories will never leave me, and they will haunt me for the rest of my life. But, I'm still going to do it, I just want to believe that burning the book could make those memories fade away.

a little happiness.

2011-11-15T12:41:00.005+08:00

This is just a random post. I don't know what else should I do. So I might as well just post something here.

Yesterday was the beginning of our holiday Correction! Yesterday was supposed to be the beginning of our holiday. But, we went to school anyway 'cause we were supposed to do three of our Chemistry experiments. Yes, I know. I did tell you before, I am no longer a science stream student. But, I still have to participate in this experiment. To tell you the truth, I would still participate in this experiment even when I don't have to. Just for the love of science. Anyway, we managed to do only one experiment. It took us 2 1/2 hours to make the experiment, and well, we didn't finish the experiment due to some problems. Typical!

After the experiment, we went to Tasha's place and hung out for a while. We had so much fun, as usual. Haha. Then we went out, without any plan. But, it turned great anyway :)

Me, Angela & Chew yang.

:)

2011-11-11T19:56:00.004+08:00

Now I present to you, myself. You're gonna be bored with my gifs.

Do click for a larger view of me wearing a little makeup. :)

:)

2011-11-11T18:14:00.006+08:00

Hello everybody :)

So, there were so many things happened these past few weeks. They kept me busy all week. But now that they're over, I'm kind of sad. How weird. I had so much fun, it's funny how fast the time flies when I'm having so much fun. And how slow it is when I'm in misery. Yeah, whatever. Life goes on anyway. Changing the subject here. My result sucks, I mean really SUCKS! I failed all my science subjects. I couldn't focus during exam. I think I made a good (not wise) decision when I switch to arts stream. Yes, so many people couldn't agree with my decision, even my parents. But what the heck, they just have to learn to deal with it.

Yesterday was our RIMUP (Rancangan Intergrasi Murid Untuk Perpaduan). It's a form 6 thing. Here are some photos from yesterday's event.

Just some photos. My camera has a very very bad quality. So, that's all.

the truth is...

2011-11-08T14:52:00.002+08:00

I have no intention of going on with my life. No, it's not that I've given up in life. It's just..I don't know. I don't know what the hell is going on with my life.

I will.

2011-10-30T21:51:00.002+08:00

I'll spit on your grave.

2011-10-19T16:50:00.005+08:00

I've been posting depressing shits lately. So, here's something that's not depressing. I think. I got this from my baboonic cousin :D

******

full name ?

- F.R.H.

how old are you?

- 18.

prove it. date of birth?

- Don't tell me what to do! HAHA.

religion?

- Muslim.

height?

- Short. I forgot to measure since my ruler was stolen.

where do you school?

- "where do you school?" I sense some sentence problem here. Sm. Ken Hwa.

gender?

- Female.

shoe size?

- 5 or 6 something. Yes, I have small feet.

what's your favourite food?

- Non-sea creatures.

are you single?

- Naah.

hair colour?

- Brownish-black.

righty or lefty?

- Right.

where do you usually online?

- Home and any place that has wifi.

state your best friends' names.

- Ahmmmm. Morty, Porty, Borty, Horty.

who is your favourite cousin?

- A gargantuan baboon called Elora Fatihah. HAHA.

*NOTE : If you see this kid, please throw a water balloon at her. TQ! :D

what is the colour of the shirt you are wearing?

- Black is the new black.

what's the last thing you did with your best friends?

- Destroy someone's house.

which artist do you look like?

- Patrick Star?

who is your celebrity crush?

- Travie McCoy.

are you taller than your mom?

- Yes.

have you ever slaped or punched someone?

- Only everyday.

what's the most embarrassing moment in your life?

- You mean moments?

if you can adopt a wild animal, what could it be?

- You mean animals? Pandas, orang utans, & PANDAS?

a singer, an astronaut or a comedian?

- None.

favorite song?

- None.

are you clever?

- Kinda.

are you funny?

- Nope.

are you a virgin?

- I had sex with Ami James last night.

if you can be a character in a tv series, who could it be?

- None.

state your weird personalities.

- I eat people.

do you like your hair?

- Yes.

do you read?

- Yes.

are you a quiet person?

- Only when I'm alone.

state your 3 best features (based on people)

- Ask them!

are you tired of answering these questions?

- I'm not, my fingers are.

*************

So, that's all. I hope you people enjoy it, 'cause I didn't.

everyone dies in utah..

2011-10-16T09:47:00.001+08:00

Hopefully, everyone dies in Utah. Happy Sunday!

what is it to life..

2011-10-15T21:48:00.005+08:00

It’s been a while. I’m out of words lately. These last few weeks were depressing. I couldn’t focus on anything, especially my studies. And I know, everyone knew how exactly that felt. It’s quite nice to have some friends that understand how you’re feeling everyday, ‘cause they felt the same way I did. But, that’s not really important. Life goes on.

So, our exam has just begun. To tell you the truth, I was and still isn’t ready for any examination. But I did my best for P.Am 2. Mathematics T, however, wasn’t so good. I was clueless and that was not what I wanted. Yes, I tried answering most of the questions. But, I ended up erasing everything and left the ones I thought would give me marks. *sigh* It was a pretty dumb thing to do. What’s done is done. *big sigh*

Moving on… Nothing is really interesting nowadays. The same thing happens everyday. How boring.

drop everything..

2011-10-14T18:57:00.004+08:00

I wonder..

age does not matter..

2011-10-09T16:54:00.005+08:00

"Call us immature, it doesn’t matter. Age is just a number that changes every year. It is not important. What’s important is we do things that make us happy"

enemy..

2011-10-07T23:06:00.003+08:00

I am my own enemy.

death..

2011-10-03T16:31:00.002+08:00

We choose to see what we wanted to see. We ignored everything else.

dusty..

2011-10-01T19:19:00.002+08:00

"Everything is fading away, as life goes day by day "- Fihi Ruhil Haya.

tribute..

2011-09-24T14:07:00.006+08:00

"Jim Henson is the kind of people that inspires me to make others happy, even though I'm not good at it" - Fihi Ruhil Haya.

I saw how Google looked today, and then I've realised that I've been watching Sesame Streets & Muppets all my life and never once I talked about the creator of this show. I felt awful, 'cause I feel like I am not appreciating the people that had created such wonderful entertainment when I was a child. So now, I thank the late Jim Henson for his hard works and efforts to entertain children in the 60's to the 90's.

*Applause*

ordinary..

2011-09-22T15:57:00.001+08:00

No, originally I thought that writing articles would keep me from having to see a psychiatrist, but I became even more depressed as a result.

-Theo Van Gogh-

with love..

2011-09-21T18:17:00.005+08:00

The world is getting older, and so are we..

How short our lives are...

.

2011-09-19T10:33:00.003+08:00

"Lies"

Fuck you. By, Fihi.

devastating..

2011-09-19T09:47:00.009+08:00

I'm glad I moved out of my old school. Fuck you, so-called "friends". Just fuck you. I hate you people, you bunch of hypocrites. I hope you people choke and die in hell.

All these years.. I was back stabbed by you people. Nothing teaches me more than this. In this new place, I hope, without any high expectations, everything will turn out okay in the end.

boring baboon.

2011-09-05T22:21:00.007+08:00

Yes, hello. No, I'm not gonna start with the "OMG, I haven't update my blog for centuries!" crap. That's just lame and annoying. Am I right? No? Get a life. Ha! So, this year's celebration wasn't so good. I went out with my friends a lot, I had so much fun, putting all my stresses aside. Well, at least for a while. Now it's back to school and I don't even feel like being in school. I didn't go to school today, planning to study by myself at the library. But, as usual, plan ruined. Reason? Too lazy to tell you people. I ended up being at home all day like a boring baboon. *sigh.

Wawa took most of the photos and I didn't get the chance to take them from her. So, no photos to be uploaded and 'playang' for now. How sad. Oh wait!! I have one photo with me, but it was from my darleng's phone. :D

After all this time, I've finally met Beagle. Ain't he the cutest? :3 I like him a lot, 'cause he was friendly and hyper. Awwww!! I miss him already. He's so fluffy I'm gonna die! Haha. But, seriously mate, he was so fluffy. I miss massaging his ears, 'cause that's the only way you can stop him from being too hyper. Don't believe me? Look at the photo, I was massaging his ears. Before you start preaching, I suggest you people get the hell out of my blog :)

marley.

2011-08-28T01:09:00.003+08:00

You won't find someone like Bob Marley nowadays. Someone who sings from the heart. Most great singers die young, that's just how it works. Anyway, enjoy.

words are more powerful than anything..

2011-08-26T20:42:00.006+08:00

Beat me up, hit me, slap me on the face, kick me on the stomach or do whatever cruel things you can think of. Sooner or later, all the pain will go away, just like eating sundaes. But once people's words get inside my head, they're quite hard for me to forget. Those words felt like needles penetrating through my skins, what witches do to voodoo dolls. "Hopefully I won't see you again after the holidays", "You should change your course", "This is not your thing". *sigh.

I'm not trying to quit school. No, that's the last thing I would do. I love being in school, to tell you the truth. I'd rather stay in school for hours than go home. I just can't focus on my studies at home. I know what are you going to say. I'm just making excuses. Well, I am not trying to make any form of excuses. I just..I don't even know what to say anymore. I tried, yes, I tried! I didn't give up during that exam. I did not cheat. I did it all by myself. But I guess what I did was not good enough for anybody. Am I unteachable? No. You teach, I learn. I am a slow learner, but I will not give up. That is something I dare to promise. I can not let myself down. I didn't apply for any 2nd intake forms, 'cause I know I wanted to finish what I've started.

I was told that I have a potential, but not in the class that I was given. Yes, it's depressing when you're told something like that, especially in front of other people. I know I'm not that good on most of the subjects right now. I'm still struggling with time. I don't wanna put too much pressure on myself. If I change my course now, I'm gonna start from zero, I don't have any basics for any subjects there except for Bahasa Melayu & History, and I do not know most of the subjects there. I know you're concern, but it's not about you, it's about me. You said that you're not trying to shoo me away, you're just concerned 'cause I had the lowest mark on the subject you're teaching. Yeah, I know. I'm not so good on calculations, I failed last year on +MT. But everything you said sounded more like you're trying to get rid of me from the class than concerned. It was eye-opening for me, I know now what I have to do.

I'll show you. I will, I may not be the best student, but I'll prove it, I'll show you, I will!

what could possibly go wrong?

2011-08-20T10:01:00.008+08:00

Well well well. Hello.

Look at this gifs and smile, it's MCR! This is too annoying for me not to publish. Hahaha. Frowning is not gonna make you any younger. :)

So, my friends and I went out yesterday. Our plan was to play badminton after a week of soul-tormenting-test or as normal humans called it exam. Haha. Sadly, all the badminton courts were booked and we decided to cancel the whole plan. I was a little upset, 'cause I was really excited about it. Sheesh! But, that didn't ruin our day. We had a backup plan that we made after our first plan was ruined. Hahaha. We went shopping for our upcoming History drama, 'cause we're going to design the props. Yeah, I ain't gonna take no part in that drama, 'cause I don't want to. Ha! Okay, let's not get carried away here.

We gathered at the bakery shop, I didn't eat! Haha. Honestly. Tasha was the last one to arrive, as usual. Jan marah ah Tasha! Hahaha. Then we went to Servay and bought most of the stuffs we needed there. We stumbled upon an old classmate of ours, Carol. We asked her if she wanted to come with us, and she said yes. She should have just said no. Why? You have to read man. Hahahaha.

After we were done with our shopping, we went searching for boxes everywhere. We got lucky 'cause the dude from Chan Furniture was nice enough to give us free boxes. Hey, boxes are not free these days, you have to pay for them! We were so happy when they gave us those free boxes. I know, I sounded like a hobo. I like hobos! Get over it! Haha. The only problem with that was those boxes were refrigerator boxes. Imagine how big those boxes were! Haha. And we had no transportation, which made everything even "great". Good thing Tasha's dad's office was across the street. But still, we had to carry those boxes across the street. Hahaha. Finally, the 5 of them carried those boxes across the street. Like Pika said "Bila lagi kita tida mau kasi malu diri di Keningau?". Hahaha.

Gosh! I felt bad about that 'cause I didn't help them at all. What kind of a friend am I? =.="As soon as we get there, I sat my ass down and didn't want to get out of that office. The 4 of them went back to get more boxes. Seriously, I felt bad about it after that. I just hate myself for not helping them in the first place. Guiltiness is killing me. *Sigh. And those workers didn't help us either. How very nice of them, assholes. Okay, I'm gonna stop remembering that for now. We're gonna start our project tomorrow. Hopefully our 7 1/2 hours are gonna be productive. :)

to buy or not to buy..

2011-08-14T12:44:00.009+08:00

Hello humans.

I know, I've been updating since yesterday. I feel like a blogging machine. Ha! Something just popped out from my mind. I am going to bore you people with my camera dilemma. I did a topic about it on May or June, I think. I don't know, I'm getting old and my memories are not as good as they used to be. How sad..

I've told you people before that I'm gonna buy the Holga, right? Well, plan canceled! I've changed my mind. I'm gonna buy the *coughing*. I'm not gonna tell you people. 'Cause every time I put the camera's name here, I ended up not buying them or changing my mind. So, I'm gonna let it be a secret for a while. Tee-hee! It's quite expensive. Okay, really expensive!! No, it's not a dslr. I'm not a big fan of dslr. Yeah, that's not my camera in my circular image on your left. That camera belongs to Tasha. I'm broke, how the hell can I get the dslr? I can't even buy can drinks and air kotak at the school's canteen, they're too expensive. Yeah, I can be a little too cheap sometimes. Blame cartoons and their influences to someone like me. And most of all, blame Mr. Krabs. Hahaha. Believe me now? Hahahaha.

I've been doing some researches about my future child (HAHA) and I find it quite interesting. That's why I've gotta have it. Ha! I'm still in the saving process. I'm saving and using my money at the same time. *sigh. There are just so many things I have to buy for now. For examples, my text books, stationery and I have to pay for this and that. I've been asking my parents for money too, and I hate to admit it, it's quite embarrassing. If only every thing in this world is inexpensive. Life would be much easier. *sigh. Dream on.

Ah! I forgot to tell you about my studies. Yes, I told you, I'm gonna bore you. 2 weeks before, on Wednesday, we had our MUET speaking test and I got Ban 2 for it. Shocking, isn't it? I blurred out. I didn't know that it was gonna be our speaking test, 'cause the teacher said that it was going to be our listening test. So, I wasn't prepared at all. But, I can't really blame anyone but myself 'cause I should be prepared for anything that's about to happen. Right! And the day before that I was absent due to a very annoying migraine. I get that a lot since Form 6 started, and I hate it! Stupid migraine.

Next week is our final week of exam. (No, duh!). Then, the week after that we're gonna go to a field trip to the DUN. Wow, how interesting, not! Not really exciting. Politicians = best award-winning actors ever. We're gonna listen and watch their acts, they're so good when it comes to acting and fake promises. The only reason why I'm still going is because we're gonna go shopping after that, hopefully. Hahaha.

Anyway, tomorrow is Biology and yet I am still here. How annoying. I promise to those who actually read my blog that this is my last post. I'm gonna be back a week after this.

Good-bye!

If I were my friends, I'd run from me too..

2011-08-14T01:50:00.004+08:00

It's kinda lonely to be me, seriously, I am not making this up to get any of your attentions. Don't be ridiculous, I do not need any sympathy. I am just trying to tell you the truth. Wow, I am so sad right now. Good thing I only have a few followers. In case you're really reading, do not mention this in real life. I would really appreciate it. :)

About the title, it's true. If I were them, I'd run from myself. Why? Simple, 'cause I'm just a negative presence. I hurt them with my sarcasm, even when I don't really mean it. Yes, I do realize that I am hurting them. Yes, I am a big fat meanie, you don't have to tell me that. I know sometimes they won't say it to my face 'cause either they're afraid or thinking that I'm gonna get them back, or they don't wanna hurt my feeling. I choose the first one. I don't know why am I so mean to people all the time. Some say that it's my nature. No, it's not. I have my own personal reasons to be mean.

I don't like to talk about it. And I have no one to talk to really, not that I want to have anyone to talk to. I don't wanna be a burden, I don't wanna force people to listen to my problems. I don't want to see them acting like they're listening when they're actually not. So, I've been keeping everything to myself. Another thing, I don't want them to tell people everything that I've told them. So, that's just it. To tell you the truth, I don't wanna pretend to be happy anymore. It hurts me to the core. You have no idea how sucks it is to hide behind a mask everyday. I feel like an idiot. Yes, I can laugh everyday, I can play everyday, but you have no idea how I feel everyday. Everything is unreal, not that I wanna say that they're all fake, of how I acted, maybe some of them are. It's funny, how I said in my previous post about bunch of actors, it's like I am one of them.

No no no! I am not one of them. I will never be like them, I don't wanna be like them. They're acting like they care, and I will tell people straight to the face whether I care or not. I seriously don't care if it hurts them or not. I'd rather tell them the truth, it's now or never...

moby dick.

2011-08-13T19:57:00.005+08:00

I am a big fan of sea creatures, especially whales and seahorses. And I am afraid to lose them 'cause they are extincting. Save the Whales and Seahorses!

...

2011-08-13T15:01:00.006+08:00

Well, hello there! It's quite cold today, which is a good thing actually. How's fasting so far? Okay, I guess. How about you people there? I bet you're doing fine. :) Our exam started yesterday and our first paper was Chemistry II. Great, isn't it? I have no idea what the hell I was doing during Chemistry. So kids, make sure you prepare at least 4 - 9 weeks before exams or you'll end up just like me. Don't blame your teachers for your own problem.

Prepare to face the angry witch....

I'm pretty much tired during these past weeks. Some people said that I'm not working hard enough. I mean, common! What do you expect? I am a human, not a robot. Sheesh! I cannot work 24/7. I'm not trying to complain but that's the fact. I cannot force myself to listen to others 'cause that's not how I work. And others cannot force me to listen to them, I am not a slave and you people are not the boss of me. Thank you for "concerning", but I do not need people to be "concerned" about my life and my studies. 'Cause they don't really care, they're just a bunch of actors acting like they care!

About this crappy image up here, well, do I have to explain some more? I thought being in a new school would make me feel more happy and less disturbed. Obviously, I was fucking wrong! There are more shits I have to deal with. What I dislike the most being in the new school is how most of the people there are wannabes. Yes, it's too easy to detect ass holes. I am not judging them. Oh please! I have many things to do than judging a bunch of ass holes at school. It's too obvious. Good thing I'm a nobody to them and they don't even know me. 'Cause I don't wanna act like I actually cared about them when I seriously don't. Hahaha. That's all I have to say about them. Waiiiiiiiiiiit!!! One more thing...

So long, and big balls. :)

how pathetic.

2011-08-07T05:49:00.007+08:00

Everything is better if I feel nothing. No feelings. Nothing to worry about. All I have to do is breathe.

2011-07-19T17:09:00.005+08:00

What a day yesterday and yesterday's tomorrow. I feel so dead right now. I don't know what is going on with my life right now. I pretty much dislike what's going on these past few days. Let me make things short.

- Pretended not to be sleepy during add maths.

- Drank 2 packets of coffee and still sleepy.

- Accidentally hit my friend's 3 minutes instant porridge and spilled half of it. *sigh*

- Bought myself a bottle of expired milk. I should complain but I'm too lazy to do it.

- Stalked by some irritating human life form.

- Stressed out and embarrassed myself in front of the former principle.

- Forgot to bring my money to school.

- Spilled some milk on the government's stupid laptop. (It's a good thing really).

- Had to escape tennis practice 'cause the stupid bus was late.

- Got home and slapped myself for complaining too much.

Gee! I'm looking forward to what is going to happen next. Sheesh! Things are pretty much messed up. I'm just hoping for a good day tomorrow.

TBS :)

2011-07-17T02:27:00.003+08:00

Remember more than you like to forget.

2011-07-16T19:41:00.004+08:00

When it comes to me, nothing is ever right. Whenever it comes to "לה", everything is always right. I have to earn everything and "היא" always gets what"היא" want. Nothing is ever fair in my life. Even the littlest thing I ask you, you will deny everything saying it's just a waste. Every time I talked about being fair, I am ignored. And when I started rebelling, you treated me like a stone. So, till this day, I lived independently. I earn everything by myself, not depending to you. Thanks. You have taught me the true meaning of being independent. And someday when I leave this place, don't you expect me to ever come back.

2011-07-16T13:39:00.004+08:00

I cannot think of a word to describe how I feel today. You are there, and I am here. How I miss you so much. I am going to wait until you are here so I can hug you like a child hugging their teddy. I miss you so much.

2011-07-13T23:11:00.010+08:00

Oh! How I love sipping a cup of coffee in the morning and watch the everyday shits. The world has shit loads of hypocrites. This is going to be an offensive post, but I have to admit, I don't care, seriously. I cared too much then, and I am not going to make the same mistake now. Where should I start. Ahh, let me start from the home of hypocrites, facebook. I seldom check on my account, and every time I log in, I see strangers adding me. Of course, I will let them hanging. They're adding you just so they can show people how "popular" they are for having 2000+ friends. That is the main reason why I hate social networking, sometimes. But that is not the shit I'm talking about.

Nowadays, homo sapiens love to post "brilliant" statuses such as this, "It doesn't matter if you're gay, lesbian, straight, bisexual, black, white, fat, skinny, bla bla bla, if you're nice to me then I'll be nice to you". How I hate this fucking sentence. This is one of the lamest and trickiest way of how people seek for other's attention. I find this rather disgusting. I've met some people who posted this "quote" as their statuses. And I can only raise a glass for only ONE human out of all of them for sticking to her words. The others, they are just fucking hypocrites. They said if you're nice to them, then they'll be nice to you. That's bullshit! I've been nothing but nice to these kind of people, and they were never nice to me. So, go fuck your brilliant words, mate.

I'm not going to say that I'm not a hypocrite, besides, everyone's a hypocrite in this old world. I'm a hypocrite 'cause I do talk behind a certain human's back too, sometimes. Boo hoo! Yeah, I dare you to admit that you have never talk about someone behind their back. Pfft! You're a bigger hypocrite than me if you admit that. I've not met anyone who doesn't talk behind someone's back. That proves it! Everyone in this mad and cruel world is a bloody hypocrite!

Now here's something you're never gonna believe. I have issues with gays, I am straight. Do not judge me so soon, people. Do I like gay people? Not really. Do I find them disgusting? Absolutely not. Do I support gay marriage? I have no answer for this one. The thing is, I may not like them a lot but I respect them for having the guts to admit that they are gay, and the courage to fight for love. Is it wrong for people to love? No, right? Even when it is of the same gender. I find those gays to be inspiring sometimes, for their willingness to fight for love. So, all in all, I have no problems with gays at all.

Don't believe me? That's not my problem really. Please refer to the photo shown. Yes, I don't.

tennis.

2011-07-11T20:23:00.002+08:00

Hello again humans.

Last week's things first. Tasha changed her course from Science Stream to Art Stream. Yes, I was devastated. But, I hate to say it to her. I kinda miss having her around the class. I'm saying this as if she's in London or something. I see her everyday, during recess and after school. But, it sucks not being in the same class. Okay, I am not being emotional here. Hopefully, she's going to be in the same class with me during MUET. Moving on..

Tasha and I joined the tennis club in our school. Yes, me and her, you cannot separate us. Whatever we do, we'll do it together. That sounded so odd. (Tasha, I know you're going to laugh your ass out when you read this. Haha). We bought our rackets last Saturday. Yes, we were so excited about it. Soooo excited that Tasha asked her dad to book the tennis court for two hours the next day. The next day, of course, she picked me up at 4 p.m and we went straight to the court. We tried swinging the racket several times, just testing, and at the same time waiting for our friends to come. HELL! My right hand hurts like hell right now. Thanks to Leong for teaching me how to swing. I'm going to murder you man. Hahaha. So, these are some of our photos yesterday.

That's Nicky and I. This was after our training. Man, this guy is funny sometimes and annoying, 'cause he's a genius, and I am jealous. =.=

Tasha's racket and other stuffs.

Tasha (at the back) and I. Yes, I am not as pale as her. But I am a happy monkey. LOL. And yes, my hair was a mess, but what the hell, I was playing tennis.

That's Nicky, and at the dude waaaaaaaaaay at the back is Leong, the pembuli. =.=

Yesterday was fun and I am looking forward to practice tomorrow. I need to stay in shape, whatever that means. Till then....

2011-07-11T20:12:00.002+08:00

Hello humans.

I miss you so much, love.

last week..

2011-07-07T19:18:00.012+08:00

Guten tag!

Get ready to read the crappy things from my head. I've been saving things in my head since last week. I was in busy since last week, so many things to do, so little time. Yeah, I'm taking things seriously nowadays. Last week was kind of fun. Let me take you to last week's activities..

Monday - Wednesday

Okay, I lied. Last week was pretty boring. Nothing interesting happened on Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday. Classes, assignments and more assignments. Yeah, life is getting busier and busier everyday.

Thursday

We (a few classmates and I) volunteered for some schools activities such as planting small trees and flowers around the school, putting up posters and so much more. We had so much fun doing all those things together. I seldom volunteer for activities like these. It's not because I don't want to, it's just this, in my last school, the teachers did not need our help, it's like they don't want us to help them, same goes to the schools gardeners. Weird, right?

Friday

All the lower 6 students helped the teachers for the "Hari Bertemu Pelanggan" slash Report Card Day slash Death Day for students who didn't do well during the first semester. Hahahaha. Vivian and I made the stupidest decision ever when we picked the class with only 27 students. Okay, only I made the decision. How bossy of me. Sheesh! It turned out that the class was an all boys class, 3 Berani / 3 F. You have no idea how naughty those kids were. No wonder they called the class 3 F. Good thing we survived. Hahaha.

Saturday

1M1S1M = 1 Murid 1 Sukan 1 Malaysia. My classmates and I didn't participate for that event 'cause we had to sit at school and wait until the last participant arrives. Am I using the correct grammar? Who cares! Hahahaha.

Sunday

We signed up for the "Larian Obor" that was organized by the Chinese Association. We did it for fun and to support the association and to celebrate the history of that event. What's the point of 1 Malaysia if we do not support all races, right? :) And besides, we got free shirts. :B

Qiqi said I was SS (Siok Sendiri). Hahaha.

Nicky and I.

Nicky, Amir and Leong / pembuli =.=

Ann and I.

Ejun, Amir, Wong, Leong, Nicky, me, Vivian, Ann and Aling. Wajah-wajah epic! HAHA!

This is our pan zhang, Qiqi (at the front) and her sister Joanne. I love to bully this woman. Hahaha. 'Cause I don't have a Chinese friend before, other than my Darleng. And now I have 3 Chinese friends, I am happy. :)

So, that's all for now. :)

when you're feeling down..

2011-07-04T20:21:00.003+08:00

Find something that will cheer you up.

For example, this Koala. This is the cutest little animal ever. *banging head on the wall* Let's forget about the bad things that had happened before. *forgetting* Oh Koala, you are too adorable for me to ignore! I love you Koala! :) I'm talking to myself. Greaaat! =.=

so much for being "The Leader"..

2011-07-01T21:30:00.004+08:00

"If you're not going to respect yourself, who will?"

Do not call yourself a leader if you cannot lead a room full of humans. If you're such a great leader, you wouldn't defend someone who is wrong, even if he or she is your friend. You do not use animals to compare with the people who you wish to respect you. I'm only going to say this once, I will never respect you as a leader. If I have to choose between respecting you and eat a jar of bugs, I'd rather eat those bugs. You and all of "them" can talk all about me behind my back, send text messages to my friends like a coward asking them if I have problems with you and your people all you want, but I will never, in a million years, will respect any of those creatures. I have no problems at all with anyone, until you people started to disrespect me. And to tell you the truth, I didn't even ask for you people to respect me. I am new and I do not need people like you to tell me what to do 'cause I am mature enough to know what I should do.

It's quite funny, you know. Your people chose you as the leader because you're one of them. Those who has no potential to be a leader, 'cause you can't even take yourself seriously. I can only laugh at you people, 'cause all of you are nothing but a bunch of douche bags. Even your people disrespect you, they laughed at you, and you can't do anything about it 'cause you're just a coward standing in front of your "friends" to please them. I stand at the back observing your every move, just to look at how you lead your people. I kept my mouth shut and I did not criticize you. But, you and your people judged me too fast, from the way I stared at them. Do you find me intimidating? Do you find my way of staring at people to be intimidating? No? So, why are you questioning me whether I have problems with you and your people or not? IF I have a problem, I'll walk straight to you and talk to you face to face like a man, or at least like a mature young adult. Just so you know, I despise people like you. So, thanks. I have so many things to think about.

Call me a hypocrite or a coward for not stating your names here. The thing is, as much as I despise you people, I still care about your reputation, and putting your names here doesn't make me better than you people.

Good night. Welcome July :)

here's jimmy!

2011-06-26T02:20:00.002+08:00

Sleeping is for the weak!

I'm having troubles with sleeping right now. So, I was just searching for something I'm gonna buy soon. And I've made my decision, I am not going to buy the Polaroid camera or the Instax camera. Please search in my previous posts 'cause I'm too cranky and lazy to put those links here. Back to the topic here. I'm going to buy the Holga camera instead. So, in order to get the camera, I have to start saving my money, again. I'm gonna save the money that my dad gives me everyday until it's enough for me to buy the camera and films. Yeah, I was not born with a silver spoon in my mouth. I come from an average family and I have to work hard to earn some money, or at least save the money. Don't get me wrong, I am thankful to have my family :)

Moving on people. My family won't let me do a part time job. So, that sort of push my chances of getting the camera by 3819894 months back. That's why I'd rather starve for it. Hahaha. Okay, I'm kidding. I'm gonna bring my own food to school. Besides, I'm gonna die if I ever buy foods at the school's canteen again. I'm not gonna say why. I'm gonna give you humans a clue, hygiene. I'm talking out of the topic already. Haha. That's it. I'm sleepy and I apologize for my grammar.

pancakes.

2011-06-25T19:27:00.005+08:00

Welcome and hello.

Today is another boring Saturday. Tasha and I were planning to go out today, but the plan was cancelled. So, there you go. I was looking forward for this weekend, not because of the plan that we made, but I can stay up late and watch cartoons. Yeah, I'm a cartoon freak. And I have to watch cartoon everyday. Just because I'm 18, doesn't mean I can't watch cartoon. No one is too old for cartoons. :)

Since I have no where to go today, I made pancakes.

1. Ingredients mixed to form a...

2. Batter..

3. Product.

Yes, I can cook. Only the simplest food, though.

But at least I can make breakfast when I am married one day.

HAHAHA. Moving on! Seriously, move on!! Haha.

The ice cream was delicious. Duhh!

Paddle Pop ice cream. When I was done eating it, I saw this.

I am the Black Dragon. (In a deep Sensei 先生 voice). Haha.

Thanks for reading :)

if I am antisocial..

2011-06-22T01:37:00.008+08:00

Earthlings. Hello.

So, I'm not going to upload the photos I was talking about on my previous post due to some problems with my phone. My phone is getting old, how sad..

About the title. There's a reason why I am a bit antisocial. Correction, reasons. I have many reasons why.

A picture is worth a thousand words. A moving picture with words is worth how many words then?

"I'd rather be a friendless loser than have a bunch of friends who secretly hate me".

You have no idea how glad I was when I saw this gif. To tell you the truth, I would rather be a friendless loser than have those kinds of people as my friends. Making new friends is a good thing for me, since I have just a little group of friends, which I really love. There's one problem when you're making new friends, you have no idea whether they really wanna be friends with you or they have no choice. Wait, I have no problems with my new classmates at all, I really like them, they're actually nice, seriously nice, and I am not referring this to them. I'm talking about the other people, other Form 6 students to be more specific.

During our orientation week about a month ago, they were so nice, but now I'm beginning to ask myself, what the hell happened to them? Yes, I actually thought they were gonna be nice, but I've learned something. Just because you've met them for a few days, that does not mean you can actually make statements about them. And I am not a fan of making statement. I'm talkative but not talkative enough to make false statements. No matter how quiet or loud you are, people are going to talk about you anyway.

So, that's about it. I need to play Freecell. Thanks for reading.

appreciation.

2011-06-19T20:58:00.003+08:00

Greetings :)

There are many ways on how we show our appreciation to others. Today is Father's Day. I have a little money left, so I bought my Abah a "Mustache Cake". Haha. Weird name for a cake, right? I'm going to upload some photos later. I'm too lazy to search for my phone's usb. Tomorrow's a new day and I need some sleep. I'm gonna update some more tomorrow. So long and good night. :)

back to where I belong..

2011-06-19T00:45:00.006+08:00

After missing for a while, I'm back. It was good when there's no internet at home. It made me feel like I actually have or had a life. Gosh! But, it's even better when there's internet at home. Yes, I have to admit it! Cause' I have to do some research about P.Am later. Hoho!

So, some people have been asking me about my studies. Those kind of people bore me, you know, cause' they've asked me a few times already and I am sick of answering their questions. No, I have no problem answering everyone's questions. But I just can't answer the same questions by the same people again and again. How many times do I have to explain it to you people? Sheesh! Hahaha.

Okay, I am currently in the form 6. No, it's not that I have no options. I have options, but I've made a decision to stay in the form 6. I didn't apply for anything, except for Matriks and Maktab. I filled up the UPU form cause' my parents told me to, I was not disappointed at all when I didn't get accepted to any college from the form. I was only devastated when I was rejected by Maktab and when the matriculation form kept on making me mad. Refer to this post . And I didn't make any rayuan cause' I feel like I have to finish this job of being in the form 6. Enough about that. I'm doing fine with my studies, for now, and I hope I'll get better and better. Amin.

I went out yesterday with Tasha, but it was kinda quiet cause' Wawa was not there. She's currently at Labuan, you know, Matriks. So, Tasha and I went to buy some things and made our class cleaning schedule, is that correct? Hahaha. I have no idea. And then I brought her to the bakso stall. Hahaha. So, it was her first time eating bakso. Hahahaha.

Aww. Ain't she the cutest. Hahahaha.

I miss Wawa. :( She'll be back during Hari Raya. *sigh. Lama lagi....

I miss you Munkey.

getting high..

2011-05-30T10:40:00.003+08:00

"promise me tomorrow starts with you"..

there's no special title..

2011-05-29T09:20:00.005+08:00

Hello :)

Life is getting busier and busier each day, now that I'm in the form 6. I'm going to stay in the form 6. It's not that I have no other options, I do, but I'm not interested. I'm not being a snobby bitch here, different human has different interests. The risk I'm taking here is very high, yes, I know. So, no more fooling around this time.

And I'm gonna leave my precious blog for a while (yeah, right!). So, good-bye humans. Oh, and enjoy this song. :) I really love Switchfoot, their songs are really good. No, great. I don't care if people called them a Christian rock band or whatever, I am still a big fan of them. All of their songs have lots of meanings in them. :)

Favorite part of this video : From 3:56 - end. :)

we move along!!

2011-05-28T17:31:00.001+08:00

Move along just to make it through!

if only I have a good title for this post..

2011-05-17T19:06:00.006+08:00

Hello hopeless. It's me. No, that's not the eye of Satan. That's just me being lame. I've got nothing to do at the time. I'm done with my Pengajian Am's homework. So, I'm quite happy with myself. I'm not gonna be lazy this year or the next year or the next year *infinity*. And I'm thinking of staying with science stream. I don't care if it's hard, I'm sticking with it! Your words won't scare the shit out of me. I've promised myself I'm gonna be more..... What do you call it..? Diligent..? Yes, diligent! I'm gonna be more diligent from now on. No one believes me though, that means I have to prove it this time. Moving on..

So, I went out today with my bestfriends, Tasha & Wawa. We bought some stuffs for school and for ourselves.

1. Friendship bracelets.

2. Same thing. Different material.

3. Friendship necklaces.

Well, that's all for now.

......

2011-05-16T17:14:00.002+08:00

I should, but I can't....

3.01 a.m

2011-05-16T03:00:00.004+08:00

It's 3.01 a.m.. I'm awake, the house is quiet. I haven't put my books in my bag. I do not feel like using good grammars. I have no one to talk to. But I don't feel like talking to anyone. They never cared. Every word coming right out of my mouth is pointless to them. I do not feel like living. I'm soulless. What is the point of living if you have to put on a happy face everyday when you're actually not happy? I am thankful of what I have now, but why am I unhappy all the time? Why do I hear my heart is crushing into bite size pieces? Why do I feel like smashing someone's face on the wall? I'm not angry, but I feel like doing it. I do not feel any pressure from school, but I can feel it, I do not know which source is making me feel this pressure. Well, whatever it is, I'm going to find about it soon.

So, about orientation week. It was okay. Nothing interesting happened. I met some old friends, and met some new people. The seniors were okay. The new school was okay, it's a bit crowded. I was in a group of strangers during orientation. It was not a big deal, they spoke in Chinese all the time. I just sat in the group with my stupid face 'cause I did not understand a single word coming from their mouths. We did a presentation on the last day of orientation week and the seniors showed us some of our pictures during the week. My embarrassing face was in the slide show. Gosh! I do not die of embarrassment, that's bullshit! So, today is the beginning of our studies.

what..?

2011-05-15T09:58:00.006+08:00

Hello, and yeah..I've got nothing interesting to post today. So, I made this instead. I saw this from a fellow blogger's blog. :)

ABC About You Questions:

A - AVAILABLE : No.

B - BIRTHDAY: March 13th 1993

C - CRUSHING ON : Zacky Vengeance.

D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD : Water.

E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO : No one.

F - FAVORITE SONG : After All These Years - Silverchair (changes all the time, though)

G - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS : Gummy bears.

H - HOMETOWN : Keningau.

I - IN LOVE WITH : GOD.

J - JUGGLE : I can't.

K - KILLED SOMEONE : If only I'm capable of doing that.

L - LONGEST CAR RIDE : 4 hours.

M- MILKSHAKE FLAVOR : Chocolate.

N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS : 6.

O - ONE WISH : I have no wish.

P - PERSON YOU CALLED LAST : My mom.

R- REASON TO SMILE : I don't know. Hahaha.

S - SONG YOU LAST HEARD : Stone Cold Steve Austin's theme song.

T - TIME YOU WOKE UP : 9 a.m.

V - VEGETABLE(S) : I eat any kinds of veggies.

W - WORST HABIT : Biting my nails. Haha.

X - X-RAYS YOU HAD : None.

Y – YO-YOS ARE : My favorite toys back in the 90's.

Z - ZODIAC SIGN : Pieces. (I don't believe in zodiac signs)

RANDOM QUESTIONS ABOUT YOU:

Spell your name without vowels : Fh Rhl Hy. What the hell..? Hahaha.

What color do you wear most : Black.

What are you listening to? : The sound of Spongebob's voice on tv. Haha.

Are you happy with your life right now? : I'm always happy with my life.

What is your favorite class in school? : English.

Are you outgoing? : Yes.

Favorite pair of shoes? : My school shoes. Hahahaha.

Where do you wish you were right now? : Ireland.

THE CANS:

Can you dance? : Sadly, no. Hahaha.

Can you tie a cherry stem with your mouth? : No.

Can you whistle? : Yes.

Write with both hands? : Nope.

Walk with your toes curled? : Yes. Hahaha. Epic.

THE DO'S:

Do you believe there is life on other planets? : Yes.

Do you believe in miracles? : Yes.

Do you believe in magic? : No.

Love at first sight? : Yes.

Do you think there's a Satan? : Yes.

Do you believe in Santa? : No.

Do you know how to swim? : Dive, yes. Swim, no. How sad life is. Haha.

Do you think you could handle the stuff they eat on those reality shows? : Yeah.

THE HAVES:

Have you ever been on a plane? : Yes.

Have you ever asked someone out? : Yes.

Have you ever been asked out by someone? : Yes.

Have you ever been to the ocean? : Yes(?)

Have you ever painted your nails? : Yes.

THE WHATS:

What is the temperature outside? : Hot. Further details, you can ask the weatherman. HAHAHA.

What radio station do you listen to? : None.

What was the last restaurant you ate at? : Pizza Hut.

What was the last thing you bought? : Hair dye.

Who was the last person you took a picture of ? : My little brother.

CRYING SECTION:

Ever really cried your heart out? : ___.

Ever cried yourself to sleep? : ___.

Ever cried on your friend's shoulder? : ___.

Ever cried over the opposite sex? : ___.

Do you cry when you get an injury? : Hell no!

Do certain songs make you cry? : Yes.

HAPPY SECTION.

Are you a happy person? : Not really. Playing happy is easy.

What can make you happy? : Watching animals. :)

Do you wish you were happier? : Nope, I'm happy and thankful already.

Can music make you happy? : Not really.

LOVE SECTION.

How many times have you had your heart broken? : Twice. But I'm happy now. :)

LOOK AT ME.

What is your current hair color? : Black. Sadly.

Current piercings? : Ears, eyebrows and lips.

Have any tattoos? : Nope. I fancy them but I can't have them.

Eye color? : Dark brown.

IN A GIRL/GUY

Favorite eye color : Dark brown.

Short or long hair : Not too short, not too long. Hahaha.

Height : Taller than me. Hahaha.

Best clothing : ntah? hahaha. :P buta pesen. wakaka

HAVE YOU EVER.

Been to jail : Nope.

Mooned someone : No.

Thrown up in a store : No. (What the hell..?)

Done something really stupid that you still laugh at today : Yes. HAHAHA. Gosh!

Gone skinny dipping : What the fuck is this..?? Hahaha.

THIS OR THAT.

Pepsi or Coke : Coke.

McDonald's or Burger King : Neither.

Single or Group Dates : Single. Hehe.

Chocolate or Vanilla : Choholate.

Strawberries or Blueberries : Neither.

Meat or Veggies : Veggies. I'm allergic to meat.

TV or Movie : Movie.

Guitar or Drums? : Guitar.

Adidas or Nike : Neither.

Chinese or Mexican : Chinese.

Cheerios or Corn Flakes : Corn flakes.

That's all. I hope you people enjoy. :)

shaba laba ding dong!!

2011-05-11T00:27:00.002+08:00

Hello. First of all, ignore the title. Hahaha! I've been busy nowadays. I went to SMK Nabawan II for the IPG interview last Sunday. It was okay. I thought they were gonna interview us in English, and guess what..? They didn't! Hahaha. I choked during the interview. 'Cause when it comes to Bahasa Melayu, I suck! Well, at least I tried my best right..? That's what's important. :)

Now, I'm still waiting for the IPG results. And to tell you the truth, I'm not so excited about it. IF I get it, I think I'm not gonna go. IF I don't get it, then that's it. Haha! That's all..

I am going to miss them..

2011-05-05T05:16:00.004+08:00

Hello. And good morning. :)

I'm so emo these days. Don't believe me, read my last post. Haha. I'm gonna miss them a lot.

This is me, during our road trip. I'm not gonna miss myself. Hahaha.

This is Shermaine.

These are Wawa, Mayne & Tasha.

Hahaha. Seriously, I'm gonna miss them so much.

2009 Hari Raya Aidilfitri. I couldn't make it to Tasha's house that time. *sob sob* But, I made those gifs of them jumping. Haha.

1st gif : Rina, Wawa, Nunun & Mayne.

2nd gif : Nunun, Rina, Mayne & Tasha.

everyone is going to different directions..

2011-05-04T20:02:00.003+08:00

How I feel at this point.....

I'm serious. Too bad it's not raining tonight. And there's no background music in the actual life. And just when I thought life was getting okay for me.

life is getting okay..

2011-05-04T15:34:00.005+08:00

Hey. :)

I was thinking about posting this a few days ago. But, I kinda forgot about it. So, I'm posting it now. Haha. Click the picture for better view. Yes, it's click-able. Hahaha. Carefully look at my it, something is wrong there. Get it..? No..? It's my I.C number. They accidentally flipped the month and day. And I found out about it the third day of SPM. Of course I was pissed by that. I had to pay the observer (is that what people call them?) RM30 to fix that mistake. I sounded like a mafia. LOL.

My heart and mind are torn into four bits. So many decisions to make, so little time. =.=" What the hell. I have to think about it carefully. That's all for now. :)

where to go..

2011-05-03T19:04:00.002+08:00

First of all, hello :)

Now that I've finished editing my template, I'm quite happy. If you don't like it, feel free to get the hell out of my blog. Hahahaha. :B

So, just got some news from my Abah. He told me that the interview is gonna be at SMK Nabawan 2. WTH..?? Hahaha. Okay, it's not a big deal actually. (IT IS). Hahaha. I'm not gonna lie, I don't even know the location of that school. Tee hee~ I'm still going anyway. Haha.

I have nothing to crap about these days. I'm out of inspirations.

Waiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiittt.. I still have WWE. Hahaha. I'm too sleepy to continue blabbing.

almost done..

2011-05-02T13:03:00.002+08:00

Yeah, almost done editing my template. Good thing I lost the last template. Hahahaha. 'Cause I like the new one better. Yeay. I guess good things come after the bad ones ended. :)

Gonna fix the rest later. I'm going out to buy the right shoes for the interview. =.= Hahaha. So, that's it for now.

my blog is currently..

2011-05-02T05:44:00.001+08:00

Thanks to my hand. =.=

away from problems..

2011-05-01T14:30:00.005+08:00

Hello people :)

I'm gonna make a simple update. Hahaha.

Wawa & Tasha.

Shermaine.

At Kenny Rogers.

Me, playing with Tasha's camera.

Room service. Hahaha. Supper.

Tasha. Hahaha.

Hungry human.

Including me. Hahahahaha.

Ox tail asam pedas. Yumm!!

Hahaha. I'm too lazy to make long updates. Maybe later.. So, what you see is what you get. :D

results..

2011-04-28T20:22:00.013+08:00

Whassup..?

I'm in a good blogging mood right now. Hahaha. So, I'm gonna tell you people about the WWE drafts results. From number 1 - 8, they're based on

what I watched this Tuesday. :)

1. John Cena was drafted to Friday Night Smack Down. What a shocker...

2. Rey Mysterio was drafted to Monday Night RAW. You have no idea how happy I was when I saw his face with the Monday Night RAW background. Hahaha.

3. Randy Orton was drafted to Smack Down. I was devastated with this result. And almost died, even though I said I was not sad at all on Twitter. Hahaha. I still wanna cry when I watch the repeat of MN RAW.

4. The World's Strongest Man, Mark Henry was drafted to SD too. Bye bye...

5. Sin Cara, too, was drafted to SD. Gosh! This is unfair, they should've let him stay on MN RAW. Am I right?

6.. The Big Show is going to MN RAW. Yipee. The giant is gonna beat the crap out of everyone. Haha.

7. Who's lucky number 7..? My sexy Italian, Alberto Del Rio. Good thing they drafted him to MN RAW. :D

8. This one was the greatest draft ever, John Cena was drafted BACK to Monday Night RAW! Hahaha. I was sooooooooo happy with this.

From 9 - 30, I got this from the WWE website.

9. Daniel Bryan to SD.

10. Jack Swagger to RAW.

11. The Great Khali to SD. (Too bad, I wanna watch him in a match with The Big Show)

12. Jimmy Uso to SD.

13. Kelly Kelly to RAW.

14. JTG to RAW.

15. Alicia Fox to SD.

16. William Regal to SD.

17. Yoshi Tatsu to SD.

18. Drew McIntyre to RAW.

19. Natalya to RAW.

20. Curt Hawkins to RAW.

21. Chris Masters to RAW. (Thank you WWE. Another sexy man to RAW. Haha)

22. Jimmy Uso's twin, Jey Uso to SD.

23. Kofi Kingston to RAW.

24. Ted DiBiase to SD.

25. Tyson Kidd to SD.

26. Jimmy & Jey Uso's cousin, Tamina to SD. (They didn't split the family)

27. Tyler Reks to RAW.

28. Alex Riley to SD. (YESSS!! They split him with The Miz!!)

29. The Glamazon, Beth Phoenix to RAW.

and finally..the saddest part of the result.

30. SHEAMUS to SMACK DOWN!

My reaction when I saw that :

Teddy Long, I'm gonna hunt you down!! WHY? WHY? WHY?

It's not that I hate Smack Down or anything, it's just...there's no SMACKDOWN on Astro Super Sports channel. I got bored watching Smack Down on TV3. Why..?

One hour. Really..? I mean, really..?

I sat my butt for two hours watching Monday Night RAW. And they're showing Friday Night Smack Down for an hour only, and they cut some of it. WTH..? Hahaha.

That's all. No more updates until Sunday. Going on a vacation with my besties today.

P/s : Those gifs are not mine. Bless these people appledressing & notrealtalk for making these gifs.

wwe draft..

2011-04-27T21:08:00.001+08:00

Heyyyyy yaa..

So, I wanna make the result of WWE draft. But, I'm too lazy right now. Gonna do it later. Hahaha.

wade, I love you so much..

2011-04-25T10:28:00.008+08:00

Hey hey hey.. So, yeah. I have a new boyfriend, his name is Wade. Hahahaha. God, in my dreams!!

Forgive me if you find this annoying. I mean, this WWE post. But, I really don't care actually. Hahaha! The photo shows my British man, Wade Barret. Why do I find villain to be attractive..? Sheesh! It's not my fault. Hahaha. How can I not love this guy. Just look at him! And if you haven't seen him in action, you're such a ________ *fill in the blank with bad word(s)*. Hahahaha. He's a bad ass, and I can't help myself from watching him. Urhh!

Seriously, this gif makes me wanna _________ *fill in the blank with dirty thought(s)*. Hahaha. Okay, I'm gonna stop now. I'm too excited for tomorrow, 'cause tomorrow is the WWE draft. Please put this man on Monday night RAW! I have to watch him. Hahaha. And please let Sheamus stays on Monday night RAW too! My Irish man is waaaaaayyyy too talented for Smackdown. :D

Observe..

See that long leg of his kicking on Daniel Bryan's face. That is not for Smackdown for heaven sake.

Do I look like I wanna be in Smackdown?! Hahahaha.

*********************

Dear Sheamus, you don't know me, but we're gonna get married when I'm 21. Hahahahaha.

You okay with that?

Hahaha. If only I wasn't dreaming.

P/s : Alberto, you are the sexiest Italian ever!!

and your ass is sexy!! :D

I crack myself up. Hahahahaha.

Suddenly, I'm feeling happy. WWE, you are my medicine, and at the same time, drug!

morning workout..

2011-04-25T07:34:00.003+08:00

Hello people :)

Sorry for my earlier post (I'm not really sorry. Haha). I was a bit EMO last night, I've got problems on my own, you know. And no, I'm not gonna share it here. Hello, this is a public blog. Hahaha.

So, I am dead tired after half an hour of workout. Hey, I'm not used to doing workouts. Hahaha. And you have no idea how fun it was working out. I've been watching this show for a while now. If you're wondering what show, turn to channel 706 at exactly 7.00 a.m.. Hahahaha. It's not that lame. Haha. I had to do something to make this emo-ing shit go away. Hahahaha. I'm hanging by a thread here and whatever happens, I just have to face it..even if it hurts..life must go on. :)

And, I've finally made my mind. I'm gonna buy the old school Polaroid. Yipee!! Scroll down to my older post, you can find 4 photos of my top choices. The last photo is the one. I don't care if I'm using my emergency money, I want this so badly, I'm willing to work for it. :)

Hopefully, our Labour Day Road Trip on the 1st of May will happen. This is the last time I'm gonna enjoy myself, 'cause when our school session starts, I'm gonna be busier than ever. I've made a promise to myself that I'm not gonna enjoy anymore. If I have to sacrifice my weekends just to achieve my gold, then I'm willing to sacrifice. And I'm tired of people sweet-talking me just to make me feel better. That won't work man! I'm used to all the words. I know I'm not your favorite, and I don't care. I'll be fine without all the sweet-talking and pretends. Thanks anyway for making me feel "better".

strangers, again..

2011-04-25T02:36:00.007+08:00

I find this video to be very asdfghjkl! I don't know why. It's funny how time flies so fast and people can change in a blink of an eye. It's sad to be in the same position with those people in the video. They're just actors, while I'm in the real world. So, lucky them. I don't know what to say, 'cause I know, in the end, I'm the one who's gonna stop trying and give up. 'Cause that's what I've been doing all the time and maybe I should just stop trying. If the people I love doesn't care about me, why should I care about them.. And if this happens.....

camera dilemma..

2011-04-23T05:32:00.006+08:00

Hey. It's 5.35 a.m and I'm too excited cause we're going to the fun fair, again, tonight. That's like 14 hours to go. Yeah, gonna meet some friends and enjoy the evening together. :D

So, back to the main topic here. My mind is torn into two, I wanna buy the Polaroid camera. More details, please refer to my older post. Just scroll down a bit. Hahaha. :D

But then, something came up a few days ago.....

Annoying, isn't it..? This is the Fuji Instax 7s. How I dislike making decisions, like this, for example. Hahaha. But, after I thought about it, I'm gonna buy this one instead of the Polaroid. This is the modern version of instant camera, I guess. The old school Polaroid is quite complicated. I was making some research about it for days now, asking some people and everything. I know it's quite easy using this one, but.. Urmm.. Well, not a big fan of modern version of the instant camera, I'm sticking to old school's stuffs, I don't know why. :)

Gonna think about it again. Till then. :D

bummer..

2011-04-20T22:36:00.006+08:00

Hello people :D

(click for better view)

So, I was checking my e-mail just now. And after deleting all the pointless ones, I checked the important ones. For example, this one. What a bummer. I wanna buy John Cena's t-shirt really really badly. :/

And I've been searching for Sheamus action figure. I sounded so obsessive, right. Hahaha. Yeah, I know. Back to my story.. Found it on e-Bay. So many of them. But, none from Malaysia. Sucks, right. Not that I'm being cheap or anything, it's just... I have to bid..money has to be exchanged..bla bla bla.. Hahaha. All of them are in the greatest condition ever. Urhh! Example, this one and this one. The first one is the new edition of Sheamus action figure and new version of him after winning the USA championship belt. While the second one is the old version of Sheamus. Sheeeeshh! I want both. :/ I'm obsessed with WWE. Oh God.

old school p o l a r o i d ♥

2011-04-20T02:51:00.007+08:00

See these photos down here. Those are Polaroid cameras. I'm thinking....well, gonna buy one of them. But I have not made up my mind yet, about which one am I gonna choose.. The only problem with Polaroid camera is, it's hard to find the film here, in this town. Hahaha. So, I have to order them every time I'm out of film. Urhh..

I think I'm gonna buy the third or the fourth one. :D

P/s : Those photos are not mine. Those cameras, I mean. I took (more like borrowing without any permission. HAHA) em' from Facebook. :)

ecosystem..

2011-04-20T02:29:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, the ecosystem is unfair. Urhh. Why am I so emo about this. My cat gave birth to 3 kittens this morning. And just now, the male cat in the house, Cookie, murdered all three of them. :( Oh, I'm so not liking this. It sucks, 'cause I saw their dead bodies laying inside the box in my room. I wanna kick Cookie so hard but I didn't have the guts. Besides, that's the circle of life. :/ Urhh. Emo-ing all day. What the hell :/

true fact..

2011-04-18T00:11:00.005+08:00

I hate to admit it, but it's true. I have friends, I have close friends, my boyfriend, I have all the people around me, but I still feel all alone. When I say something, it's like I never said anything at all. And the worst part of all is when they don't even remember a word you just said. Sad, my words are not important to anyone. I'll shut my fucking mouth for a while. I'll treat you like a stone.

saturday night fun..

2011-04-17T03:42:00.006+08:00

It's Sunday. 3.51 a.m in the morning, and I'm so tired right now. But, sleeping is for losers. Hahaha. I'm kidding. I'm dead tired but these eyes, like I've said million times before, won't close. Heyya people. :)

So, I had so much fun today. I mean, yesterday night :)

Thanks to these guys ; Tasha, Maine, Ed, Ameen & Vivian. Thanks for making last night a great night. :) I 'sms'-ed my classmates yesterday morning, except Wawa & Azmira, 'cause I know the answers are no. I invited them to come with us, IF they are not busy or anything. Sadly, of all the people I 'sms'-ed, only 4 people replied. Thanks for replying anyway. How sad. And only Ameen came with us. I didn't sms Vivian, due to my insufficient balance of credit. But, we met her there :) The others, __________ (insert bad words). Yeah, doesn't matter. Who cares about you people anyway. I was being nice, and Tasha wanted them to come. I sms-ed this one person, she's not my classmate, ex-classmate, invited her to come, 'cause she felt like we're treating her as if she's not our friend. She did not reply. I wanna point my finger to you, friend. As much as I like you as one of my close friends, you're pissing me off lately. Seriously, pissing me off.

You said that we're treating you like you're a nobody. The thing is, you never keep in touch with us. You never send us a text message or whatever. But then, you're blaming us for not telling you. If you're really our friend, you should've not wait for us to contact you. You should've called us or whatever. Okay, I'm not gonna continue this any further. Hahaha. I don't wanna ruin my happy mood. Hahaha.

So, back to the happy part of my asdfghjkl story. Hahaha. We finally had the guts to ride the Space Gun. Man! I seriously thought I was gonna die up there. SERIOUSLY!! Of course I screamed like a buffoon. But, Ed screamed louder than me. He was just beside me. And he almost fainted. Bahahaha. So much for macho boy. Hahaha. After that ride, he kept on saying he's gonna puke. But in the end, he didn't. And we rode the Space Gun again. Hahaha. We're gonna be adrenaline junkies soon. Haha. So, the second time we rode the SG, Ameen was beside me. Si Ed main solo2. Hahaha. Naah, I forced Ameen to sit beside me. I'm not gonna risk my life sitting by myself. Hahaha. It was kinda boring sitting next to him. 'Cause he didn't scream. He's being all macho. Yeah, right! Haha. Maka kabur dia nampak habis dia buka spek. Hahaha. Okay, I'm kidding. Hahaha. I didn't wear my spechtacles, so I was pretty blind last night. But, I saw this dude, which I dislike the most. My urrmmm...I prefer calling him Muggles, a term from Tumblr for lame people. Bahaha. My ex. And he was near us when we were on this one ride, I don't know the name of the ride. That pretty much ruined my mood a little. Urhh...

Other than that, everything was okay :) I saw many people from FB but didn't speak to them, 'cause I have no guts, socially awkward man. Hahaha.

After hours of fun, we went to KFC to eat. Chatted for a while, KFC was closing at the time (HAHA!! RUINED YOUR PLAN FOR CLOSING), and then went home. Overall, last night was great. Unfortunately, we didn't take any photos. Haha.

It's 8.16 a.m. Time for bed. Hahaha.

all hail the king of _____..

2011-04-15T06:17:00.002+08:00

So, I'm being the King of asdfghjkl. Hahaha. I don't even know what that stands for. Am I being mean if I don't want to confirm my old friends who added me on facebook..? Like I've said before, it's not that I don't like or hate them. It's just they don't even wanna add me before. What's the point of them adding me now. Hahaha. Yeah, serve them right. Call me mean or whatever you like, 'cause frankly, I don't give a damn. :)

xx

no no no..

2011-04-14T02:43:00.003+08:00

It's not that I hate my friends. It's just I don't really feel like I wanna be friends with them anymore. This is for my friends from my school. I don't know how to explain this. Yes, I know. I've been acting happy on facebook. It's easy, 'cause most people there are fake anyway. They don't understand. I know you've heard this from everyone. But, it's true. Nobody cares. That's why I prefer spending my time on Tumblr and Blogger more than facebook.

Whatever. I don't really care about anything right now. I only care about getting myself into Form 6 and Edge retiring from WWE.

How can I not cry, right..? This is just so sad. Especially from 3:40 - 3:42. :'(

fantasy meets reality..

2011-04-13T03:55:00.004+08:00

I can't sleep. Knowing that he's gonna go back today is making it even harder for me to sleep. So, I did this. I mean, I was trying to make myself tired. But, I remembered I was going to watch As Told By Ginger on Nicklelodeon. Call me childish or whatever you want, I'm not gonna change and you cannot change the fact that I love watching this cartoon, and I've been watching it for years. So, there you go.. Sorry, I'm a bit cranky right now, due to the insomnia attack. :/

I edited these photos down here. Yeah, I'm not good on editing things. Just started using photoshop thingy. Photoshop + Photoscape. I had fun editing but it took me hours to finish those photos, 2 of them. I'm so weak. Enjoy anyway. :)

I was inspired by Tumblr and Neon Tree's song - Animal. The animal head thingy. The fair was fun. Get it. Fair, as in fun fair..? Get it..? Oh, whatever.. Haha. What did we play.. Let me see, I think we played everything and rode every ride there. EXCEPT for one ride, the Space Gun. I wanted to, but Tasha and Maine refused. I was scared to ride it anyway. Haha. I don't know the name of this one ride we kept on riding, but it was super fun. I almost puke when they forced me to play. I can't explain more. Haha. :)

That's all.

when life is pushing you down..

2011-04-12T23:41:00.003+08:00

You just have to stand up and fight back..

So, yeah. Maktab, not my luck man. Of course I'm devastated. But, life must go on. Haha. I know, I'm acting like I don't care. I do, but, I cannot live with sadness. 'Cause I've been living with that feeling all my life. And I'm used to it. =.=" I'm saying this, in a serious way, I don't know which is more devastating; I was not accepted to Maktab, or Edge retiring from WWE RAW. Or my Darleng is going back tomorrow. :'(

Why must I face those news in the same day. Urhh.

life these days..

2011-04-10T19:48:00.002+08:00

So, my life is now officially boring. Wait! Not exactly boring, 'cause I have WWE with me. My days, other than Tuesdays & Thursdays, are boring. 'Cause every Tuesday I'm gonna watch WWE RAW, while on Thursday I'm gonna watch WWE NXT & Smackdown. Hahaha. Life is good on those days.

I'm still waiting for the maktab thingy. Urhh. Suddenly not in the mood to crapp..

yeah..

2011-04-08T18:43:00.005+08:00

Whassup! Whassup!

So, I was on tumblr and this is what happened...

Messages (1) T.T So proud. Hahahaha. I rarely get this. Hahaha.

Look down below......

Hahahahaha. I am so proud to be a WWE fan. T.T

c a s h is needed..

2011-04-08T01:52:00.002+08:00

Hey-Hi-Hello!!!

I've been posting about WWE these days. AND I AM STILL GONNA DO IT. Hahaha. At least until I get THIS SHIT RIGHT HERE!! I mean, shirt. Hahaha. I told myself to use my money for emergencies only. AND THIS IS ONE!! I am going to buy it, I don't care!! Hahaha.

But, the thing is...there is no MALAYSIA in the list. :'( How sad! I really, really, REALLY wanna buy that shirt.

wrestlemania 2011

2011-04-04T19:18:00.011+08:00

Hello!! :D

Yeah, I'm happy today. Wrestlemania was AWESOME!!! I'm so happy!!! :D

Overall results.

1. Edge vs Alberto Del Rio.

Winner : Edge.

Edge destroyed Alberto's effin' car. Don't believe me..? Click here. Hahaha. What a match..!!

2. Rey Mysterio vs Cody Rhodes.

Winner : Cody Rhodes.

Unfortunately, Rey Mysterio didn't win. Reason : C.Rhodes CHEATED!! Stupid!

3. The Corre vs The Big Show, Santino Marella, Vladimir Koslov & Kane.

Winner(s) : Team Big Show.

Hahaha. Man, favorite match of Wrestlemania 27! Vladimir was injured the night before Wrestlemania 27 during Axxcess, by The Corre. So, the team replaced him with Kofi Kingston. Great teamwork = winning the match.

4. Cm Punk vs Randy Orton.

Winner : Randy Orton.

Cm Punk, poor you. You should have never challenged Randy. :D

5. Michael Cole vs Jerry 'The King' Lawler.

Winner : Michael Cole.

Funniest match of the night. Stone Cold Steve Austin was the special guest referee. Jack Swagger, Booker T & Josh Mathews were stunned by SCSA. But, Jerry didn't win. Thanks to the anonymous RAW General Manager, what an ass! Jerry was disqualified. Read here for more details.

6. Triple H vs The Undertaker.

Winner : The Undertaker.

19 - 0. The streak was nearly ended. Good thing it didn't.

7. Dolph Ziggler, Laycool (Layla & Michelle) vs John Morrison, Trish Stratus & Snooki.

Winner : Team Morrison.

Shortest match of the night. Hahaha. Snooki was born to be a wrestler. Hahaha. :D

8. The Miz vs John Cena.

Winner : The Miz.

My wish was not granted. Hahaha. John Cena didn't win, sadly. No details for this one. Too sad about the match. :(

That's all.

road to Wrestlemania xxvii..

2011-04-03T18:20:00.004+08:00

Guten Tag, that's hello in German, I think. :)

Finally, some justice for my eyes. Hahaha. 3 hours of sleep, fair enough. I feel so ALIVE!! Hahaha!

So, it's going to rain soon, so I'm gonna make a countdown. Hahaha. Okay, countdown to Wrestlemania XXVII. A friend of mine said that I'm " way too excited" for the event. DUHH!!! Of course, are you nuts, it's Wrestlemania for heaven's sake!! Hahaha. Okay, maybe I am a little, just a little too excited for this.

I'm gonna make this Top 10 list of my favorite WWE Superstars theme songs.

1. John Cena

I get excited everytime I hear his song on wwe. Gaahhh! Please kick the Miz's ass tomorrow.

Stone Cold (Legend)

Yeah, this is one of my all time favorite wrestler ever! You mess with him, you'll pay. No mercy. Woo!!

2. The Undertaker

18-0. 18 times winner on Wrestlemania. Only time will tell when will his streaks end. I think Triple H doesn't stand a chance. He's gonna rest in peace. Muahahah!!

3. Rey Mysterio

This 5 feet tall cute Mexican is the tiniest guy in the business, next to Hornswoogle the Irish midget. But, do not under estimate this guy. He may be small, but he can kick the Big Show's easily. I can't wait to watch him destroys Cody Rhodes' face. Hahahaha.

4. Randy Orton

The Viper, Randal Keith Orton. He's dangerous and he will beat anybody anytime. Cm Punk, you're gonna lose. Hahahah.

5. Shawn Michaels (Legend)

6. The Truth

7. The Big Show

8. John Morrison

9. Edge

10. The Miz

Okay, there are two people in the number 1 spot. What do you expect, I can not choose between those two. Hahaha. Well, who cares! Hahaha.

That's all for tonight. Not gonna be here for the rest of the night. Why..?

'CAUSE STONE COLD SAID SO!!

april fools..?

2011-04-03T12:52:00.000+08:00

wrestlemania 2011..

2011-04-03T03:35:00.004+08:00

Hey hey hey. So today I'm gonna post something special. Something I love dearly from the first time I laid my eyes on the Sports Channel on Astro. Hahaha.

Next Monday is gonna be awesome!! I'm gonna sit my butt down and watch WRESTLEMANIA XXVII!! I asked my dad to subscribe the channel and well, HE DID!! THANK YOU ABAH!! My family, we're wrestling freaks. Even my grandmas from both sides of my parents are wrestling freaks. Hahaha. My boyfriend is a wrestling freak too, so there you go. Hahaha. I've been watching WWE for I don't know when, since I was in primary school. I still remember the first time I watch it, my nanny and I were screaming and shouting in front of the TV. Hahaha. The name was WWF back then, World Wrestling Federation. So, it's been...now that I'm 18, it has been 10 years. Some people don't really enjoy watching wrestling, I don't know why, too much violence ay..? And some people call it fake.

WELL, it's WWE, WWE stands for World Wrestling Entertainment, ENTERTAINMENT! What do you expect..? Kids watch it, old people watch it, again, what do you expect? Do you want to set a bad example to those kids out there and give those senior citizens heart attacks..? Sheesh! Haha. You see down here, even the WWE Superstars urge people not to do this, 'cause they're trained performer, and I repeat, PERFORMER.

The video waaaay up there shows one of the most memorable moments of WWE. How can it not be memorable, just watch it..? The ring was destroyed by these two! Brock Lesnar vs The Big Show. And down here you can see The Big Show, again, but now he's destroying Jack Swagger's trophies, obviously. Hahaha. Serve you right Swagger!! Hahaha.

For many years I've watched WWE, I've been a DIE HARD FAN of Kane, he is still my favorite, NO MATTER WHAT *Psychopath voice* Hahahaha. Okay, I'm serious. But not psycho kind of serious. Haha. I just love him a lot, with the Chokeslam from Hell! Okay, moving on..

This guy down here is Sheamus. Ain't he the hottest ever..! Haha. Okay.. He is the fastest rising star in wwe. I fell in love with him the first time I ever saw his appearance. Hahaha.

He's attractive because :

1. He is Irish.

2. His accent is so sexay.

3. He's just mean.

4. Red head. Hahaha.

Got a problem with me loving Sheamus. ..?

Come here and I'll give you a little taste of the Irish Curse or Side Slam Backbreaker. Or maybe the Brogue Kick. Hahaha. That's all.

sleep sleep sleep..

2011-04-02T02:40:00.006+08:00

Presenting....

Asher Roth :)

Ain't he the cutest ever..? Hahaha. Seriously!! He's cute. I've been listening to his songs for a while and finally I've decided to post something about him. Of all the songs (his songs) I've listened to, this one wins!! It's about the words he said or rapped. Haha. It's about B E L I E V E!!

"So it's not about fame and fortune,

it's about believing,

and believing in yourself..

And understanding that this life, is life..

It's liberty and the persuit of happiness,

and happiness isn't about

getting what you want...

It's about loving what you have.."

Moving on.........

Sleeping problems, oh sleeping problems. When will you end..? I need to sleep, so badly. But my eyes are still wide. It's not fair. :/

My body : SLEEP TIRED SLEEP TIRED SLEEP TIRED SLEEP TIRED SLEEP TIRED SLEEP TIRED SLEEP TIRED SLEEP TIRED SLEEP TIRED SLEEP TIRED SLEEP TIRED SLEEP TIRED SLEEP TIRED SLEEP TIRED SLEEP TIRED SLEEP TIRED SLEEP TIRED SLEEP TIRED ..

My mind : Bitch don't sleep..

Panda eyes will never end. I'm so not liking this. Insomnia ya ya ya ya ya ya ya.

Since I couldn't sleep, I put a nuffnang widget. As you can see, the alien is following you. Hahaha. Feel free to click any of the nuffnangs ads. :)

That's all.

old days..

2011-04-02T00:13:00.003+08:00

Hello.

See, how happy I was at school. BAHAHAHAHA! I think this was a week or two before SPM. No wonder I didn't do well. Hahaha. We're playing around like a bunch of fools. Hahahaha. And as you can see here, I was taping Neesa's face with a plastic tape. Hahahahaha. Oh yes, I stole this photo from my friend's blog. I even tried taping Neesa to a chair but she's a monster. And the tape was not strong enough to hold the monster. BAHAHA!!

Okay, that's all. And yeah, I do not celebrate April Fool's day yesterday. I'm so good. Hahaha. Good night and big balls. :) And one more thing, hello APRIL!!

WHY CAN'T I SLEEP!!!!

2011-04-01T17:57:00.001+08:00

SHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIITTTT!!

cause tomorrow is a new day..

2011-03-30T04:28:00.009+08:00

Bonjour people..

Yeah, this is my half bald head. Okay, maybe quarter bald. Hahaha. I am now Baldy McBaldypants. I was not lying when I told you people that I've already shaved my head. To make this even clear, here's the post :http://fihiruhilhaya.blogspot.com/2011/03/cause-today-is-like-everyday.html. Don't ask me why I still keep those sideburns, I just love touching them. Hahaha. I didn't edit these photos, maybe just combined them, but that doesn't count! They're actually two photos combined into one, so that makes one photo, right? Okay, I'm confused. Hahaha. Moving on~ So, you can see my zits and whatever is on my face. Haha. I'm not a big fan of editing photos. Why..? 'Cause I need to show people that I AM NOT PRITTIH (pretty)!!! NEBERRR WILL BIHHH (never will be)!!! Hahahaha. Gawd!

Some people will shit about this. I was inspired by Tumblr, no duh! :) No regrets here man. What's done is done. Say what you wanna say, negative shits ain't gonna bring me down. I'm gonna do anything as long as it makes me happy. For example, this. Hahaha. I know what you're thinking, "She is moving on with her life so fast" or "She has forgotten about her ugly result", bla bla bla. It's not that I have forgotten about it, but I can't live in regrets forever, even though I have no regrets about it. No no no, no regrets at all. I can say it gazillion times if I wanted to. Hahaha. I just need to stay positive, maybe something good will come from this, hopefully. I'm so sleepy right now, I don't even know what the hell am I saying.

Lack of sleep, restless, hungry, insomnia, panda eyes attack! But in my case..

Cute panda eyes. BAHAHAHA!! *losing my mind, literally*

Gifs above = what I'm doing right now. I just realize something, I haven't use gifs like these for years. Hahahaha. Okay, I'm going now. Like, seriously. No more typing 'cause I'm sleepy. But these fingers won't stop typing. Help me! BAHAHAHA. *Again, losing my mind, literally*

That's all. It's time for me to go to bed. HAHAHA!! Good morning creatures.

count on me..

2011-03-29T02:56:00.003+08:00

Hello people. :)

For my close friends. I'm not a big fan of Bruno Mars, I like him 'cause his lyrics are interesting. Yes, I don't listen to BMTH 24/7 even though I love them, like seriously. Sometimes I have to listen to something like this. So, this is for my close friends. You can count on me 'cause I can count on you. :)

earth hour + gaspard ulliel = LOVE!

2011-03-27T08:11:00.007+08:00

Hello again.

See, his "dimple" makes him look even hotter. I can stare at his photo for hours. Oh ma gawd! He is just so hot, next to Ash Stymest (Also hot plus a bad boy..Ahh!). Hahahaha. So loving them both!!

This is so gonna be my wallpaper. Hahahaha!!

Last night was Earth Hour. And of course we turned off all the lights in the house for more than an hour. :) I just love the planet. Do I sound like a hypocrite for saying so..? Well, fvck you! I do love this planet and one of my goals in life is to save it. Even the littlest thing I do can help this world you know. Many people may not realize this but this world is getting older every day, like humans. And in the end, it's gonna die, like humans. So, think before you waste anything.

Even the littlest thing you do can change the world. Do little and save big. :)